dreadful people...............

I was inspired last fall to become an Administrator of this Christian subgroup. I call it “subgroup”, because it’s one of thousands of groups that make up this big Internet website that helps people with mental illness. My illness, as many of you already know, is that I suffer depression.

My experience at this website has been extremely good, and I have been there for 2 years. The group has grown like “wildfire” and has hundreds of thousands of members and is growing. It’s in every continent except Antarctica, and I haven’t yet run into anyone from Asia but that doesn’t mean they aren’t there. What really gets me down are instances where my ex and a few people in rare events are cynical towards me and don’t understand me. Yet, the people at this website “get me”, they understand, I help them, and they help me. The whole inspiration for the website is that there are so many people suffering from mental illness, and there isn’t enough money to pay for the psychiatric healing all these people need. Moreover, one can even go as far as to say that there are not enough psychiatrists and psychologists to help all those needing help. This is especially true in rural areas!! There’s been a number of newspaper articles written about this. & this is what inspired the website and drives it to new heights!  It's possible, some day that we will be a million strong at this website. 

The group has picked me up when I’ve been down so often that I just can’t thank the many friends I have enough!! Also, they give great advice; sometimes even spiritual advice which is often the best advice to get!!

Well as administrator at Christian Fellowship, I’m happy that I have improved the site a little bit. Unfortunately, I had to kick this one person out. First, she spoke meanly about someone else in the Fellowship group (it’s “Fellowship”, not “Be Mean Group”). So, I deleted her reply. From there it went all down hill. She created new fake identities so that more than one person would be criticizing my administrative skills. That’s a direct violation of our website’s policy!! Then she told lies about me and I just said, “enough”, and I kicked her out. She had her friend then talk about how sorry she was, and that she was actually this really good person that has saved souls by proselytizing.

But this woman wasn’t finished with me. I made her more angry! First, she looked through her Friends list. If any of them were friends with me, she wrote them a note saying you can be friends with me or you can be friends with Vince. BUT YOU CAN’T BE FRIENDS WITH BOTH, MAKE A DECISION BY THE END OF THE DAY!

Then she spent hours examining 6 months worth of my Journals that I kept at the website. Like a politician, she wanted to dig up dirt on me. She found one where I was upset and was venting (damn, if you can’t vent at your mental health website, where can you vent??). So, she copied and pasted it and spread it around to a number of people with the comment, “Wow, that guy sure is a Christian chap…..look at how he swears.” Let me tell you something, God is not going to send us to hell for swearing (unless it relates to the 2nd Commandment), He is going to send us to hell for not helping our fellow man, for lying, cheating, hurting others, etc. Further, the Bible tells us he will not send to Hell people who ask for His forgiveness.  I responded to this by restricting access to my Journal.

Well, the worst was yet to come (& she may not even be finished with me, who knows?). Last spring, a woman in Christian Fellowship committed suicide. Before she died, she criticized one of our members. The person she criticized was devastated and thought she caused her death. We had a series of e-mails back and forth as I counseled her. I finally convinced her that, no, she wasn’t responsible for the person who committed suicide. Somehow, the very same person digging dirt in my Journals got wind of the suicide, so she told someone that I drove her to her death. Luckily, the person she told said that she was absolutely wrong. Thank God for good people!

I’m strong, and I definitely don’t regret banning her. She is developing a terrible reputation inspite of the fact that she is sick too (she suffers Parkinson’s). I will not let one bad person ruin the beautiful experiences I have had and all my dear friends there at that website.