Friday, July 23, 2010

dreadful people...............

I was inspired last fall to become an Administrator of this Christian subgroup. I call it “subgroup”, because it’s one of thousands of groups that make up this big Internet website that helps people with mental illness. My illness, as many of you already know, is that I suffer depression.

My experience at this website has been extremely good, and I have been there for 2 years. The group has grown like “wildfire” and has hundreds of thousands of members and is growing. It’s in every continent except Antarctica, and I haven’t yet run into anyone from Asia but that doesn’t mean they aren’t there. What really gets me down are instances where my ex and a few people in rare events are cynical towards me and don’t understand me. Yet, the people at this website “get me”, they understand, I help them, and they help me. The whole inspiration for the website is that there are so many people suffering from mental illness, and there isn’t enough money to pay for the psychiatric healing all these people need. Moreover, one can even go as far as to say that there are not enough psychiatrists and psychologists to help all those needing help. This is especially true in rural areas!! There’s been a number of newspaper articles written about this. & this is what inspired the website and drives it to new heights!  It's possible, some day that we will be a million strong at this website. 

The group has picked me up when I’ve been down so often that I just can’t thank the many friends I have enough!! Also, they give great advice; sometimes even spiritual advice which is often the best advice to get!!

Well as administrator at Christian Fellowship, I’m happy that I have improved the site a little bit. Unfortunately, I had to kick this one person out. First, she spoke meanly about someone else in the Fellowship group (it’s “Fellowship”, not “Be Mean Group”). So, I deleted her reply. From there it went all down hill. She created new fake identities so that more than one person would be criticizing my administrative skills. That’s a direct violation of our website’s policy!! Then she told lies about me and I just said, “enough”, and I kicked her out. She had her friend then talk about how sorry she was, and that she was actually this really good person that has saved souls by proselytizing.

But this woman wasn’t finished with me. I made her more angry! First, she looked through her Friends list. If any of them were friends with me, she wrote them a note saying you can be friends with me or you can be friends with Vince. BUT YOU CAN’T BE FRIENDS WITH BOTH, MAKE A DECISION BY THE END OF THE DAY!

Then she spent hours examining 6 months worth of my Journals that I kept at the website. Like a politician, she wanted to dig up dirt on me. She found one where I was upset and was venting (damn, if you can’t vent at your mental health website, where can you vent??). So, she copied and pasted it and spread it around to a number of people with the comment, “Wow, that guy sure is a Christian chap…..look at how he swears.” Let me tell you something, God is not going to send us to hell for swearing (unless it relates to the 2nd Commandment), He is going to send us to hell for not helping our fellow man, for lying, cheating, hurting others, etc. Further, the Bible tells us he will not send to Hell people who ask for His forgiveness.  I responded to this by restricting access to my Journal.

Well, the worst was yet to come (& she may not even be finished with me, who knows?). Last spring, a woman in Christian Fellowship committed suicide. Before she died, she criticized one of our members. The person she criticized was devastated and thought she caused her death. We had a series of e-mails back and forth as I counseled her. I finally convinced her that, no, she wasn’t responsible for the person who committed suicide. Somehow, the very same person digging dirt in my Journals got wind of the suicide, so she told someone that I drove her to her death. Luckily, the person she told said that she was absolutely wrong. Thank God for good people!

I’m strong, and I definitely don’t regret banning her. She is developing a terrible reputation inspite of the fact that she is sick too (she suffers Parkinson’s). I will not let one bad person ruin the beautiful experiences I have had and all my dear friends there at that website.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

some quotes

People are measured by the challenges they overcome given the resources available.

A pat on the back is only a few centimeters away from a kick in the pants.

Murphy's Golden Rule is that he (or she) with the Gold makes the Rules.

Murphy's 1st rule is that anything that can go wrong will go wrong. 

Peter's Principle is that in any company a person will rise and be promoted until he is incompetent at the higher position and stay there.

In a workplace, if you carry a legal pad and walk around looking buisnesslike you can walk anyplace at work premises. 

When you drive a long distance, the speed and number of cars you pass is inversely proportional to the speed of the car you are stuck behind at the very end of your trip.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained. 

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

it will do you some good

WE live life; we feel strongly about things, we work hard, & we learned many things............. but maybe sometimes we need to look at the other side of the coin. 
Read this, it won't change your vote but it may do ya' some good.



Robert Creamer

Dirty Little Secrets the Republicans Don't Want You to Know

The Republicans have a set of dirty little (actually not so little) secrets they don't what you to know -- and certainly don't want you to think about when you go to the polls in November.

And the fact is that some of those secrets could provide Democrats with silver bullets this fall. But first let's recall the context.

Over the course of eight short years -- between 2000 and 2008 -- the Republicans methodically executed their plan to transform American society. They systematically transferred wealth from the middle class to the wealthiest two percent of Americans -- slashing taxes for the wealthy. They eviscerated the rules that held Wall Street, Big Oil and private insurance companies accountable to the public. They allowed and encouraged the recklessness of the big Wall Street banks that ultimately collapsed the economy and cost eight million Americans their jobs. They ignored exploding health care costs, tried to privatize Social Security, gave the drug companies open season to gouge American consumers and presided over a decline in real incomes averaging $2,000 per family. They entangled America in an enormously costly, unnecessary war in Iraq, pursued a directionless policy that left Afghanistan to fester, and sullied America's good name throughout the world.

Their economic policy of cutting taxes for the wealthy and deregulating big Corporations failed to create jobs. In fact, over his eight year term, George Bush's administration created exactly zero net private sector jobs. They inherited a Federal budget with surpluses as far as the eye could see and rolled up more debt than all of the previous Presidents in the over 200 years of American history. And in the end they left the economy in collapse.

This was not a disaster that could be remedied overnight. By taking bold action at the beginning of his administration, President Obama and the Democrats in Congress prevented the financial crisis from morphing into a Great Depression -- but the Republicans, some Democrats, and the powerful special interests have done everything they can to throw sand into the gears of change. Most importantly, they have stood in the way of providing enough economic stimulus to launch a robust, widespread economic recovery.

But notwithstanding Republican opposition, Obama, the Democrats and their progressive allies have -- after a century of trying -- finally passed health care reform allowing America to end its status as the only industrialized nation that did not provide health care as a right. They are on the brink of reining in the recklessness of the big Wall Street banks. And they have set the stage for massive long-term investments in economic growth and clean energy.

But it has been hard to pull the car out of the deep economic ditch and Americans are angry at the slow pace of economic recovery -- and also at the special interests that profited from their economic pain.

So the Republicans now have the audacity to argue that President Obama and the Democrats are somehow responsible for the hardships that they themselves created. In effect they want the election to be a referendum on whether the Democrats have mopped and swept fast enough cleaning up the mess that they created.

They will do everything they can to prevent America from focusing on the real choice before them in the fall elections -- a choice between going backward to the failed policies of the past that caused this catastrophe and a new direction that will create sustainable, long-term, bottom-up, widely shared economic growth. The real question before the country is whether it is willing to hand over the keys to the economy once again to the same gang that just caused the most serious economic pile up in 60 years.

That's where the dirty little secrets come in. It turns out that the leaders of the Republican Party have learned nothing from the reckless escapade that caused so much economic pain, and came perilously close to inflicting mortal wounds on the American economy.

They still actually believe -- despite what we have all just experienced -- that by "freeing" big oil, the insurance companies and Wall Street banks of the "burdens" of government accountability, that the plutocrats and the "invisible hand" of the market will lead American into the promised land of economic prosperity.

Some of the things they believe are not only dangerous to the economy, luckily they are also politically radioactive. And quite remarkably, many key Republicans are actually willing to say them out loud. Here are a few:

· Meet Congressman Paul Ryan. Ryan is the ranking Republican on the House Budget Committee. If the Republicans once again take control of the House, he will be the Chair of the Budget Committee. Ryan believes -- and says out loud -- that Medicare, one of the most popular Federal programs in history, should be abolished and replaced with vouchers for private insurance. Let's recall that one of the ways Republicans stirred up opposition to health insurance reform was by falsely accusing Democrats of wanting to cut Medicare. They convinced some unwitting seniors that "Government" should keep its hands off Medicare -- which is, of course, a "Government" program. Democrats need to make it crystal clear in this campaign that Republicans -- who opposed Medicare from its inception -- actually want to abolish the program and hand over control of health care for America's seniors to the same private insurance companies responsible for driving up rates three times faster than wages while their profits have exploded.

· Congressman John Boehner, the House Minority Leader, has endorsed another Ryan proposal to raise the retirement age of Social Security to 70 years old -- a proposal that might go over fine with a guy like Boehner who makes speeches for a living. But it won't be very popular at all with someone who has laid bricks, or run an earth mover, or waited tables for forty-five years.

· The whole Republican crew wants to resurrect the failed Bush proposal to "privatize" Social Security. The defeat of Bush's privatization plan was the turning point in the Bush Presidency. It was all downhill from there. Yet -- whether it's to pad the investment accounts of their friends on Wall Street or because they are "private markets uber alles true believers" -- the Republicans want to try it again. Only this time retirees won't have to work very hard to imagine what it would have been like if their Social Security checks had plummeted in value the way their 401K's did when the market collapsed just two years ago.

· The Republicans want to weaken and repeal the new law to rein in the recklessness of the big Wall Street banks. Most Republicans and Democrats voted to bail out the big banks to prevent a 1930's style market collapse. The difference is that Democrats supported legislation to rein in their recklessness -- that had cost 8 million Americans their jobs -- and assure that a bailout was never allowed to happen again. But with very few exceptions, the Republicans voted to a person against holding Wall Street accountable. Given a chance, they plan to team up with their pals on Wall Street to free them to return to their reckless ways at will. In fact, they told the titans of Wall Street as much in fundraising meetings, where those "masters of the Universe" were asked to ante up. Republicans claim to oppose more Wall Street bailouts, but they refuse to support legislation that would prevent one in the future and hold Wall Street accountable. That -- coupled with those big contributions from Wall Street -- is a position that is very difficult for average voters to swallow. In fact, the polling says it's down right toxic.

· Republicans have consistently voted against extending unemployment benefits to workers who have been laid off because of Bush-era policies and the recklessness of Wall Street. Remember, people who get unemployment benefits -- by definition -- are looking for jobs that the economy doesn't provide. In addition, many Republicans actually believe that the best way to spur employment is to lower the minimum wage.

· Finally, meet Congressman Joe Barton. If the Republicans win back control of Congress, he would once again most likely serve as the Chairman of the Energy and Commerce Committee -- the Committee that oversees the oil industry. Congressman Barton has never met an oil company he doesn't like. In fact, he's the guy who actually apologized to BP when they were forced by the Obama Administration to take economic responsibility for the disastrous Gulf oil spill. As a political matter, that's like apologizing to Jack the Ripper.

These are politically radioactive positions that do, in fact, define the core of Republican policy if they were once again to control the gavel in either House of Congress.

We hear a lot about how Democrats have to "localize" the elections to have a chance of victory in November. And it is true that people vote for people in elections -- and the quality of Democratic candidates will give them a major edge in many races. So while it is a good idea to "personalize" the races for Congress, the last thing Democrats should do is to "localize" them, because the party that nationalizes a midterm -- and dominates the national dialogue -- almost always comes out ahead.

Instead, Democrats need to take the offensive and dominate the national conversation by talking about what the Republicans actually believe and what they would do if they win in November. Voters must be offered a stark choice between Democratic and Republican policies in the fall. If they are, "Conventional Wisdom" that keeps predicting a Democratic disaster will be proven wrong, the same way it was when it predicted that America would never elect a tall, skinny African American guy named Barack Obama.



Sunday, July 11, 2010

let me just take a nap!

Yesterday, Saturday was a bit of a disappointment. I woke up very tired.


 I was in slow motion during the morning. I really wanted to go biking but there was so much else to do that I was absolutely overwhelmed. I was so overwhelmed that I'm planned on the spur of the moment to ask management at the firm if I can take a vacation day next Thursday.  That way I can install a window that was broken, BIKE, and take care of other chores. 

The morning got worse. MB just got 2 airconditioners and she's got them going on "COOL" and the temp in the low 70s. I took it off COOL and put it on "Energy Saver". I mean, hell, she complained about the electric bill being $200 last month. I told her it would be $300. She said, "That's ok, at least we won't get sick from being hot". Who's been sick?? no one. I was being yelled at for  trying to save electricity and money by moderating the air conditioners some.  Wouldn't most people like it when their spouse tries to save them some money?? Well, it was good of her to buy us air conditioners.  The one we had was old, and it's asking a bit much for expecting that little thing to cool the whole condo. 
Then, I paid a couple bills, took them to the post office. My youngest, Brianna, got invited to another birthday party. Honestly, she's only 8 and she has twice the social life that I do. I  took her to get 2 birthday gifts (she was going to a birthday party today and just got the invite to the one tomorrow), I did laundry, fixed her sandal, took her to her party. Then I played ball with my son and his friend. & through all the activities, I said, no way am I going biking. It's too much. I was fighting fatigue through the afternoon amid all the stuff I was doing.

I beelined it to the bed as soon as I got done playing ball w/ my son and laid there for at least 3 hrs. But then I got up and watched SNL and futzed around the computer for awhile. Like I'm doing now.

The weekend brings its own complications, b/c I refuse to take Lunesta to go to sleep. No Lunesta  makes me go to sleep much much later.  Now, I could take a Benadryl to go to sleep instead, but DAMN(!!), do I have to live like fucking Elvis (the one who took a pill for everything he did)!!  Then the next day starts considerably later. I was advised by me Dr. not to take Lunesta 7 days a week. & with it's rotten side effect who the hell would want to??!!?? I have "metal mouth" when I take it. I basically have a metallic taste on my tongue and can't drink water b/c that really doubles the metallic taste!

It's like I said before. The Lunesta advertisement is that a purple butterfly flies around benificiently spreading stars everywhere, and people smile and say "good night" and sleep tight. Now, if there was truth in advertising, they would show the butterfly climbing in someone's mouth and leaving a fecal deposit on their tongue.

I'll continue to struggle and hope I bike a helluva lot more this week than last. Oh well, at least, my daughter is happy.