several thoughts......

There are actually times now that I take a deep breath through my nostrils & am thankful. First of all, on a superficial level, because I am happy that I don’t have a cold and my nose isn’t stuffed up (lol). Yet, it’s not just that, I will actually catch myself thinking, “It’s great to be alive”. Before, I thought that saying was simply a cliché, because I felt terrible. Yet, there are actually times now that I catch myself being thankful. Thankful that my financial situation has improved ever since the large tax refund, thankful I had the presence of mind to stick a very large portion of that refund in paying down credit cards. Thankful that I have a job that I enjoy doing and that I get paid every other week and am not unemployed. Thankful for my car that has worked very well for the past 5 years (and am even more thankful for it b/c it was stolen last year but got it back w/ only the ignition guard taken off!!). Thankful that I have such good kids. Thankful that one of them (Ted) is so mature, so thoughtful, that he not only looks out for his sister, but looks out for the family and even his own dad sometimes. How many kids are like that?!?!? The kid doesn’t know what selfishness is!

There is a certain theory about dreams that I believe in. There are certain dreams that we have that have meaning. But most dreams aren’t that way. Most dreams are just a load of nonsense. There are scientists or experts say that are brain puts out random thoughts during our dreams. And that the logical part of our brain is disengaged.

For example, last night I dreamed that I went to this place that was a giant house, and part of it was for living. However, part of this huge house was a clothing store, and I met one of my friends that I see on the train regularly and said “hi” to her. Not much of a dream and hard to get any symbolism out of it. Besides, you can't have a giant house that is half residential and half store, because it would violate zoning!

Last week, I dreamed that I was in a burning building. I wanted to get out and started going through this door. Then I suddenly realized it went straight to the outside and if I went through the door, I would fall over 100 ft. to my death and I yanked myself back in. But just like other illogical dreams, I suddenly found myself out of the building. Then the building collapsed! & I couldn’t stop wondering, “How did I get out of the building?? I didn’t jump out (b/c I would either be dead, in a lot of pain or would have imagined floating down {you can do that in dreams sometimes}), I don’t remember taking the stairs down from the inside or the outside. So how the hell did I get out of the house safely?? Then of course I woke up.

Did you realize that everyone dreams but you only remember the dreams where you wake up immediately after. Usually, when we sleep, we go through Sleep stages 1, 2, 3, 4, REM/dreams, then stages 1, 2, 3,4, dream and it keeps repeating for 8 hrs. or however long you sleep. When you go from dreaming back to stage 1, you won’t remember that dream.

By the way, there's a fairly new song out that I absolutely "dig"!! It's by Fleet Foxes and is called "Mykonos". It's not the song I would usually like. The last half of the song is my favorite part and it sounds like Irish music. & I usually don't like Irish music. Somehow on this song it works. If you like folk rock or folk music, you'll love this song.
Has anyone seen the video?? It's supposed to be really awesome, dreamy video about these oregami triangles (representing feet) triumphing over malevolent forces that threaten them. The only reason I know about the video is from Wikipedia (one of my favorite websites and one I have even made writing contributions to).