anxious circumstance, WORSE memory!!

NOTE: I'M NOT USING THE ACTUAL NAME OF THE FIRM BELOW FOR PRIVACY REASONS. Also, in the latter part of this post, I AM NOT USING THE ACTUAL ADDRESS OF A CERTAIN BLDG. IN CHICAGO FOR THE SAME REASONS.

Our law firm is taking a big interest in a different case. A case/lawsuit that we are not involved in at all legally.

They had me copy parts of the lawsuit at the Clerk's office. I pointed out to them that there is a part of the case called "Discovery" that will probably not show up in the Clerk's office file. So my office manager said, "I think what we could do is go to Joe Moron''s office and get the "Discovery" part there.

I am really getting worked up about the office manager asking me to go to Moron's office. I worked there in 2002 for 6 months. In Sept., right after I had to suffer the trauma of being served divorce papers, I was told that Moron fired me. I was shocked; I was blindsided. I really am not 100% sure 6 1/2 fuckin years later why I was let go.
I think that the reason it happened was that I had to have deviated septum surgery the same month I got fired, and I was off for 1 week afterwards and then my surgeon ordered me to leave work early several times for required follow up care. At the 2nd interview all prior to that of course, Joe Moron made great emphasis that he put a high value on good attendance if I was to work there. The person who fired me was this young ofc. manager, and he was so shocked that Moron fired me that he had TEARS in his eyes when he told me. He knew that I had just been served w/ divorce papers. So, he took me to the firm's kitchen, went to the fridge and said we need to drink some beer and then told me I was fired.

I was given some money to get a cab and go home with my boxes of possessions that I had from work (I learned a lesson not to bring so much stuff to work with you). There was a time when the taxi driver & I knew that the money given to me by the firm to pay the taxi driver was not enough. I was afraid that he was going to leave me at the side of the road b/c he was angry. I figured at that point that if he let me out of his cab, I would hope that some criminal, some gangbanger would come by and kill me. That's what I really wanted. Between the divorce and the firing coming so close together, I was in a ton of mental anguish. But then I decided to tell the cabbie that we would stop at a gas station and get him some more $$. That made him much happier and I got home with no more incidents.

So anyway, I am getting worked up about the thought of going over to Moron's office and copying documents. It just brings back so many bad memories. There's a chance I won't have to. A made it known in the office that I didn't want to do this. &, believe it or not, I am actually not that low on the hierarchy. (WOW!!!!!!!)

& get this! after I got fired, I was hired by another firm 2 months later. It was one floor ABOVE Joe Moron's firm!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It ended up that this firm was even WORSE, actually much worse than Joe Moron's firm. I worked for a very abusive female attorney who loved to scream at me. I didn't quit b/c I really really needed the money and knew it would be next to impossible to go to another firm. so when I was fired there (only 6 months after the 1st firing) I was actually relieved.

So 070 S. Prick St. is where both law firms are at. & you know what, it's going to be traumatic that I might have to walk into a building housing so many bad memories for me. I don't know if I'm going to be asked but just the thought of going into that tall white building is just like going back to an awful crime scene! It literally makes my blood beat faster and completely changes my mood!!